This post is based on Week Seven of An Ignatian Prayer Adventure.
It is the night of the Passover meal, the night before your death.
You are not the calm, controlled, repetitive voice we hear each week at Mass.
You are desperate, eager, attentive, and emotional.
You say, “You have no idea how much I have looked forward to eating this meal with you.”
You are with your closest companions for the last time as one of them. You are desperate to be assured they get it, that they understand all you have tried to teach them. You have been with them day in and day out for three years. You know the road ahead will not be easy for them without you. But most of all, you want them to know how much you love them.
You have nothing to give them—no estate to pass on to them as your heirs, no trust fund to leave them financially secure, and no earthly kingdom or dynasty. After 33 years on this earth, you amassed no material wealth. You even had to borrow the donkey to get there that night. You have nothing to give away to your closest friends. Nothing—except this: this loaf of bread and this jug of wine.
On the night before you die, material wealth no longer matters to anyone. The only thing that matters is having your loved ones near and being sure they know how much you love them.
And you take that bread and wine, and you break it and share it and give it away. You give away all that you have left, as if saying in one desperate plea, “Please, please, in this gift, see how much I love you. It’s all I have left, but more than anything I want you to have it. I want you to remember me by it. I want you to remember how much I love you.”
I want you to remember how much I love you.
This is your last will and testament to each of us.
I’ve been thinking a lot about the Eucharist in the past years, only to realize that I don’t understand it. I believe in it, but I don’t get it.
Little by little I’ve been walking towards it, with more questions than answers, but believing that even when I don’t understand it, it’s still true.
This little post was yet another step. Thank you.
Lisa…reading your bio info is proof of the daily occurrence of the death and resurrection cycle that occurs in our lives. THANK YOU for being a living example of Hope and a reminder that when we rise above the challenges that come our way, we experience New Life. May the Easter Spirit continue to live deep within you. 🥳🎶🙏🏼🥰🦋
Thank you, Judy. I have definitely learned experientially what a gift every day of life is. But also that death is not to be feared as we too often think. That is what I celebrate today.
Thank you Lisa for this beautiful reflection. Happy Easter.
Thank you Lisa for this moving reflection. God bless you.
Very beautiful, thank you. I am unable to attend any services for Easter and no family anywhere near to help me, so I am more than grateful for you doing God’s work. God Bless and Holy & Happy Easter to you. a.m.d.g.
Another post of significance, and I thank you.
I also pray daily for you good health, so that you may
continue with your husband and three children to bring
the Lord to others, as you have been doing.
Very moving – I am deeply touched by this reflection,
Oh my that was so touching. A wonderful meditation for Holy Thursday. Thank you for sharing.
just what I needed thank you
Nice reflection. Thanks.
What a lovely and moving reflection . Lenten blessings to you,Lisa .
A tender and beautiful meditation. Thank you!